Forever.

forever is long. somethings in life forevers not enough. sometimes forever seems just about right. sometimes forever feels like forever. and forever can go on forever and ever. somethings arent meant forever. some are only forevers. as much as i want someone to be my forever; i want to be that someones forever as well. never know a forever til its too late to find out that its a forever. but i believe theres a place where forevers will go so they can start their true forever. a place with no doubts. a place of purest of happiness and selfless love. if only the world would live their lives toward that goal. if only the world would fathom the saying "you shall reap what you shall sow."

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious y'all.

Gold's Gym cont.

so that day we signed up. its pretty neat. i really like the movie theater feature a lot. makes an hour go by quick.

work hurt my feet tonight. didnt quite make the tips i shoulda made. i fucking hate waiting around for people to do simple things. but what ever. cant break the cycle of shit once its running.

our dogs have the worst smelling farts ever.

my bf has the smoothest skinnnn.

that is all. should i go bowling? but i really want this drink from Fridays.
mah...

Gold's Gym

everyones doing it.

hahahah well james and his friends all switched over to Golds from the puny gym simi valley work out. feel bad for the gyms out here. its like that whole dogdeball gym thing. hahahah i wonder if its true. anyways just found out that desirees 24 hr gym membership has been cancelled. now that the both of us are totally out of shape and that summer is just around the corner; itll be great to go together. whoo hoo. its weird. i apparently lost weight and all my old jeans dont fit at all anymore. i havent noticed. others have sure had but i think if i was to hit the gym itll be better. i really need to get into shape. last time i was all fitted was about a year and a half ago. gross. well at least im not like over 27 and fat mushy and pale. never will there be a day for that shit. disgusting. ok so let me know if you go there too. since its a club disguised as a gym. :P

ps. if you see guys breakin in the rooms. the one with the longer black hair is mines. LAY OFF YAH FUCKS. pahaha not necessary. but i like to add it just for kicks. til next time, yo.

Mind Status

i have a CPR class tomorrow morning. i should have already read this booklet that he gave me about 2 weeks ago. i read 2 chapters. not that its intense or hard its just that my mind gets amazingly exhausted just thinking about studying. wiggidy whack. then thinking about the 2 full years of school im gonna be entering this summer, makes me want to slip into a coma. i dont know how im going to be able to do this. i need to get a desk in this room or the library gonna be my 2nd home. good grief.

in ONE MONTH i will have my damn stupid license back! gah! its been 5 months of "can you take me..." NO NOW I SHALL BE FREE!!! FREE TO GO TO MCDONALDS!! hahahaha no i wont be going there. but i damn sure will get a lot of shit done with myself being self mobile and what not. and NO i did not get a DUI. i simply have the heaviest foot known to a korean girl. not anymore.

i dont think farrah (our cat) likes me anymore. its too much fun to torment the kitty. its all with love tho! on the other hand the pups are greater than ever. i gave boomer a time out for eating a lollipop and now he refuses to smell one even when its given to him to his face. love him. and lucy? well shes still buff and still a paranoid dog that watches way too much tv. :D

i feel like weekends are really weekends to me. i hardly even notice unless i was scheduled to work and the restarant was busy. now that everything is back to normal and the way it was. i love it. i love living here. theres never a boring day, theres always action and of course theres always james. but other than that i used to think back to where i used to live with my brother. i couldnt believe all the time i had to myself. which prob was the reason i was constantly out and about. which was also the reason why my brother and i clashed. but if he knew how much im at home now. haha its weird but whenever we do go out, to a point, we cant wait to get home and be home.

june 8th. 4 year mark for james and i.

pretty amazing. im sure my friends are amazed with it too. hah doubters! lol jk sure doesnt feel like it though. it doesnt even feel like ive been living with him for a year. i love how we function. how we work. how we just are. just taking it one day one week one month at a time with all due respect for each other. how we choose to grow instead of tearing each other apart from selfishness. i mean there is no past tense is love really. its either you do or you never did. at this point i knew i loved him before i even met him. couldnt have been anymore picture perfect. couldnt have dreamt for anymore. sold to me as is. thanks james for being james.

on a wayyyy different note-
if your depressed, not from this world, feel like the world hates you, feel like killing yourself... then kill YOURSELF. DONT bring anyone else down the fucking shithole with your sorry ass. i think its even more pathetic that people seem to "FEEL" that suicide it not enough for them but to mow down 827364274 people with them would make up for their self worth. fuck you fuck yourself with a fucking gun and die. leave the happy people alone. fucking stop smoking stop eating shitty food stop excessively drinking stop killing yourself. if you feel like your gonna have to die eventually and you dont give a fuck than you shouldnt even be here to begin with. fucking selfish fucks.

and the black community needs to stop flipping out about every black racist shit. if your gonna be crazy about it then stand up for ALL RACISM. and if you dont want to be called a nigger, "you people" shouldnt be calling each other that then. AFAI WFN PIJNFOAIBFOAIHF PSFJAIPSDFH gah...

thats how i feel. judge me or not who cares cuz i sure dont.
other than that...
"you look like snoopy and it makes me laugh..."

Disneyland

loved it.
hated all the walking but that was unavoidable.

California adventure was pretty cool. the hotel tower was the best ride in the whole park including disneyland. i dont like the new space mountian. was just a huge rave inside. the old one was way better. pirates of the caribbean was cool. jack sparrow looks really real. think theyre holding johnny depp as hostage. i forgot all the rides there so i was surprised and got pretty scared at some points of the rides. indiana jones, star tours, and the flight across CA were fanatasic.

its been a minute since i been there. i think last time i went was gradnite. then swore to myself i wouldnt go til i had a wonderful boyfriend. now that dream came true since thats what disney is all about. hahaha going with jorgine (james sister) jade (jorgines daughter) cheryl (james' mom) josh (james' twin) and one day with desiree (my bffl) made things all worth while.

jade who turned five this friday was a pretty good champ. walked the whole two days we were there. had only a couple of fits but those were taken care of real quick. jades a pretty dope five year old. shes a character fosho. her mom was just on a mission to enter into EVERY store/boutique as some kind of intense mission as cherly was dying for the oversized corndogs.

pretty much kinda rained on us on friday but we bought ponchos like EVERYONE else at the park and toughed it out. didnt really mind cuz the longest wait was about 40 mins. and the fastpasses helped a grip load too. we covered a lot of the park. but felt like we missed a "land" but we were done "banging out" all the worthwhile rides. those kid rides are definite acid rides. trip out.

the fireworks: FUCKING AMMMAZING!!! loved it. totally got wowed outta my mind. outta everyones. we're talking about how insane disney would be like when we're all old and bringing our kids there. wow to top themselves. a big wow.

other than that... enjoy some of the pictures.

pedicures are fucking ticklish.
total guilty pleasure to get em done though.

disneyland and CA adventure tomorrow and the next for jades 5th birthday.
i can hardly wait!
i wish desiree could come both days.
maybe eunice will come the next day.
oOOH!
but ov course...
zillions of pictures.

check one two one two.
i wonder
just how many of you
would be interested in my stories...